the days pass.
so f a s t.
but oh so s l o w.

starry nights
blur.
into bright days.

and fade once again into
orange red sunsets.

my heart is longing.
in desperate need.

of something B I G G E R.
something d
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                       e
                       p
                       e
                       r.

im not sure yet.
what awaits me on the next horizon.

but today.
i am making the decision.
to pursue it.

[i wont stop chasing after You.]

Checkin' out the moon
And the city lights
He takes off his flannel shirt and he
Drapes it around her shoulders
Slides up behind her and holds on tight
And she says
I don't want this night to end
Why does it have to end?

A tear falls off her cheek and
Right when it hits his arm he says
Come on baby, let's get out of here
They take one last drive around town
And man it already looks different
He bangs the wheel and says
Life ain't fair
And this growin' up stuff man I don't know
I just don't wanna let you go.

Yeah that's what my momma told me
And just like those kids
I didn't wanna listen to no one
Yeah there's nothin' you can do
There's nothin' you can say
And I know how it feels when love goes away...

But here it is
They don't have long.

They've been dreadin' this moment all summer long
The night before...

Life goes on.

-Carrie Underwood

so often i am left speechless.

life is so hard.
but

so rewarding.
so beautiful.
so humbling.

i am working a job.
doing little kids birthday parties.
wild. crazy. fun.

i am spending a lot of time
with family. bonding.
dinners together. food and laughter.

i am holding hands with a certain boy.
he smiles at me and i get butterflies. still.
after almost 2 years.

it is only because of His great Love.
because of His unending Mercy.

that here i am.
so blessed.
in all of these endeavors.

my heart is gracious.
and awestruck today.
in His prescence.

{the last few steps to freedom
have been taken.}

a beautiful summer evening
drapped in gowns of school colors.
next to one of my best friends.

my name was called
and there i was shaking hands.
thanking them
in a grand finale
of these past thirteen years.

{the Lord is faithful.
you know that?}

past. present. f u t u r e . . .

and its only been recently
that ive began to truly understand

g r a c e.

{im growing up
and theres so much more beauty in it
than i would have ever thought.}

Haven't Written Lately

I am going to college, in the fall.
Indiana Wesleyan University.

6 hours from home.
a life on my own...

Pretty exciting.